Oh wow. What a terribly hurtful thing to find out!
Not that it lessens anything...but the internet porn thing is very common, but no less devastating.
Hopefully, you will be able to start a conversation about it, and be able to start dealing with it.
I hope your surgery goes well...and that you can put it all into God's hands. Don't stop taking care of yourself, either.
I'm so very sorry that you are having these difficulties. 
May our dear Lord, give u the strength, to go through this very trying time...And I have heard that everything happens for a reason...Sometimes we may not understand the reason at that moment...Later on we may know...God bless u...
I am with you Pookie59. Why is it always seems like everything always dumps on you at once. I fight demons one on one, but they always seem to gang up on me. Just try your best to keep your chin up (even though I know that's hard sometimes), and do try and put as much of your burdens in God's hands as you can. It really does help. I will be thinking of you and your family. Take care and God Bless.
Try checking this out to see if they can help you:
http://www.everymansbattle.com/
Sincerely, Neecerator
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