augh. What am I doing??
I feel like I'm going nuts. Tomorrow is my inspection, I'm 99% sure the kitchen will pass.. so why am I sitting here wondering what the hell I'm doing?
To recap: I'd had it in my head that I'd eventually look at adding cakes to my existing wedding business. Did a cake as a favor (at cost) to a client/now friend on August 4th.. and everything snowballed. Tomorrow's gonna be 2.5 weeks since I decided to go ahead with this now, and I should have my license in hand less than a week later.
Intellectually, I know my recipes are good, I know my friends / family / like EVERYONE at that wedding 2.5 weeks ago like the taste AND look.. but it just seems insane to me to be going from "maybe someday" to "doing it" within that short amount of time, you know?
What if I'm not REALLY ready?
There are a million thoughts along those lines racing through my head. I've never worked in a bakery. I have NO idea how I'd deal with a problem if one arose, you know? I watched that Bronwen 7/7/07 video last night, and I think I got spooked!
I also got the green light this morning to exhibit cakes at a wedding show I was already registered for.. LESS THAN ONE MONTH AWAY. I think that's also spooking me.
What if I'm not good enough? I've got these visions of going to that show, thinking I'm passable.. and just getting laughed at.
The arrangement with the kitchen I'm renting.. seems TOO perfect. I'm kinda waiting for an axe to fall with that, you know? That's probably really paranoid, I'm just not used to luck/timing/etc coming together, so this whole thing seems weird and surreal to me.
Did any of you go through this? Any words of advice?
It's normal. It's called "Fear of Discovery". We have our own personal insecurities, and while on the outside we display the confidence and the talent to do any tast, inside we are quivering with fear of failure and our "Fear of Discovery" is that everyone will see what a fraud we are ... that we're not as great or talented as they think we are.
It's normal. You're ok. Deep breath. move forward. Your talent will take you there! 
Flowergirl, I'm in the same boat as you. Last Monday I went to talk to a local resturant about using her kitchen after hours and on weekends...by Friday I am licensed, signed up for sales tax, have insurance and ready to go! I've been asking myself all weekend "I'm I insane!" What have I done. Will I make enough money to cover my rent and expenses?
I'm just trusting in the Lord and taking a big breath. I think when the excitement calms down and the orders begin to roll in I will be more confident. Don't doubt your ability, God doesn't! Pam from Bama
YOU WILL BE OKAY. I too have had that same feeling lately....last Friday was 3 weeks since I quit my fulltime job to stay home and do the cake thing........I was legal and licensed in May 07. In those 3 weeks, it has been 4 birthday cakes and 2 wedding cake bookings and just got another call last night for a cake for Sept. 2. PS: I have only done 4 wedding cakes, so this is a major accomplishment for me! 
I too did like wespam......I simply am stepping out on faith......and hoping for the best. If I can do it, you can too........best wishes!
Your cakes are beautiful and you take things at the pace that you can handle. It is ok to say no and actullay that leaves them wanting more!! When I book weddings I put a limit to how much I will take on and that makes most of my brides be more respectful and they book in farther in advance.
ANd if you get in a pickle you can always come here and your CC friends will always helpout in a pinch!!
Good luck
Thanks guys!
Guess what.. I passed. I'm licensed. Holy crap. I felt like I was going to throw up during the WHOLE INSPECTION! Anytime he went in to get a closer look at something, or fussed over something, I thought I'd lose my stomach.
LOADS of stress right now, because I thought I'd have to wait till I had the license in hand before I could advertise, etc - not so. Inspector told me yesterday that I could "start baking orders today if (I) wanted"!
So, where I thought I'd have a week to roll out my redone website.. I can have it up NOW. But it's not done yet. Auuugh. Lots of work!!!
The reception hall where I'm renting the kitchen is going to host a "coming out" party of sorts.. sort of like a big cake testing night, but mostly for industry. I have no idea when, I'm assuming in the next 2 months or so. Have to get the website up, get my postcards (ordered already), compile mailing lists, etc.
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