Alright, I already feel like a whiney person doing this but I have to get it out.
The last few days I have been so down! 
My boys are driving me insane. My five year old has been so mouthy, bossy mouthy, defiant, disrespectful, and just plain ol' a pain in the butt lately!!!!! 
I don't know when the last time I had a day that I wasn't getting on his case and putting him in time out. He does things all day long to irritate his 2 1/2 year old brother. When my youngest gets mad or hurt or whatever, he yells loudly. 
That irritates me to no end!!!!
I need a break! My in-laws that are the ones I can ask to take the boys over night are on a trip to Colorado and won't be home until the 1st. of July. I am going insane 
I need peace and quiet. The only time I get any is when I jam my headphones in my ears and jack up my ipod at the gym. No wonder I go for an hour every day.
I am currently in the 7th stage of my husbands deployment. The anticipation stage and it's only going to get worse for the next two months before he comes home. It still seems so far off.
I am so tired of being the disciplinarian I could just puke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you all for reading this. I just wanted to get this off my chest and hope that someone else has been in my situation and can let me know how to get over the frustration I feel.
Thank you so much all!
Amy
Amy,
I'm so sorry! You have got to be at wit's end. Are there any kids in the neighborhood that can babysit so you can escape (or even kids who can be a mother's helper type so they can play with / occupy the boys while you put your feet up?). I can't imagine how hard it is for you knowing your hubby's coming home soon, but not soon enough. And I know it's got to be hard for him to know all that he's missing at home.
I hope tomorrow's a better day and that you can reclaim a tiny shred of your sanity and can hang on to it until your inlaws get back in town!
Carol
Thanks Carol,
My new neighbor is actually in the same situation with three kids 8, 5, 3!!! They just moved here and her hubby just joined my husband "out and about"! We talk alot just standing out in front of our houses while our kids play so it does help having someone in my exact situation albeit my hubby has been gone four and a half months longer than hers. We both have been through this multiple times before though. My first time with kids though and she just had the one at the time.
She has offered to take the kids off of my hands or out of my hair for a bit so I can go somewhere and have coffee or just window shop to get my mind off of what is stressing me out. She's done that a few times for me already just so I can take a peaceful shower after yard work without my kids screaming at the door of my shower. It's just hard though to ask for help. It makes me feel like a failure in ways.
We mother's can just take so much before we have to completely remove ourselves from the house and everything in it.
Amy
DON'T feel like a failure, first of all. You'd be failing yourself if you didn't take her up on it. And you can do the same for her so you're both helping each other out . . . while that seems like it would just make you nuttier to add more kiddos to the mix, I swear that the days when I have my niece and nephew here, it goes smoother because the kids play more (and nicer) together and I even tend to have more time to do my thing because they're happily occupied. That's awesome that she moved in (fate, maybe?) right when you needed someone to relate to the most. Plus, if she ends up taking your kids more often than you take hers, make up the difference with a cake. =)
True true!! To top all of this off. I have been informed, because I inquired, that I will no longer be making cakes for the NavHosp!! I'm pretty upset about it. I was set up to make the Corpsman birthday cake for this past Friday and I hadn't hear anything more in the last month so I contacted the person who orders from me and she said that the recreational activities committee has decided to go another route for all cake needs. No particular reason!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I'm pretty upset about that especially since I had to contact her to find out why I hadn't been sent any information about the cake. She's the driving for on the RAC and she says "no particular reason". My husband says it's just a cop out. Hey, if it's because I'm too expensive then tell me that, don't just leave me hanging.
Sooooooooo what was supposed to be a busy season for me and one that I was looking forward to has now fallen through the cracks. I'm extremely upset about that because doing the cakes helps me. It's like therapy for me and it's something I know I am good at and a project I can actually start and finish!
Okay, gotta stop fuming because I am just becoming more irate!!!!!
Amy
Amy, I pray for you and your husband each time I see one of your posts. Your count down to his return reminds me of your sacrifice. I wish I had great advice for you. You need a break (which you already know). I hope you get that soon. You are not whining. It's good to blow off steam. And we are here for you.
Jennifer
I to am greatful for what your husband AND Yourself are doing. What a sacrifice both of you have made for all of US. I am sorry that you are having a tough time. Kinda makes you wish that the government had a service provided for mothers who's husbands are deployed with a discounted daycare. Maybe like a dollar a hour for just a few hours a couple of days a week so you can get your stuff done. Vent anytime we all do!!! Makes me also wish that I lived closer so my oldest son could babysit for you (he does wonders with kids and volunteers in the daycare at school, he's certified at 13). But anyways heres a big ole kentucky hug for ya ((((((( HUGS ))))))))) hope it gets better for you.... Remember we are thinking of you!
Christi
I just want to cry!
Thank you all so much for being here for me. The weekends are especially tough because the routine of the week goes by the way side. They just seem to go slower.
I am glad however that the weather is now better so we can spend the majority of the time outside going to parks and the zoo. It's good for the kids which is important but darnit...........who's taking care of me!!! I need TLC too!
Amy
Oh Hon, my thoughts and prayers are with both you and your husband. My dad was in the Navy for 20 plus years and you sound exactly like my mom did (on more than one occasion - unfortunately). It's a very hard life for everyone involved but I can't think of one that's more noble and admirable.
Are there any drop-off child care facilities near by? Any day camps on or off base? Do you go to a church where you could post an ad looking for a "Mother's Helper"? These are all tactics my mom employed and I know that my sister and I benefited as well. Happy mom equals happy house 
Most of all DON'T feel like a failure! You are anything but. Asking for help indicates a maturity that only the strong posses. (If it helps, I have a number for a tribe of pygmies that you can sell your children to 
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