Oh, Dawn - Jaybug is right, but that was really hard to read. Really hard. I completely know why you are doing it, but that causes a pang in my heart. A big one. I support you though in whatever you do, but auughh, it is still really hard to read. I hope that you can still sell somehow. I don't want to see that door close. I am glad you had such a nice time with your family and that your shoulder recovers soon.
(Just please don't hang up those pastry bags completely.)
Gemini - Oh, I fully understand where you are coming from with the whole 'feeling like a slacker'. For me, it is not having a 'title'. There is nothing like going to a cocktail party and having all these VP's ask me what I do and I funble for words and their eyes glaze over.
All of my friends are professionals, so I feel the pressure, but like you, this thread has really helped me.
Here is something that really hit home for me - Bakinccc told me that she had stopped taking orders and now she was finding time to do other things - regularly excercising, now finding time to focus on other activities and doing cookies for fun. I read that and thought' "Wow! That is nice! I would love to do that!" and I immediately thought, "What am I doing?" and I envisioned how on earth I was going to do all of the things I promised my kids I would do with them this summer and do cookies. All the more backup I needed to keep balance. One design a week - that is it. All in moderation. (But I do think I will take a couple of weeks off at the end of summer.
I will reaffirm what Bakincc said about how we all help fulfill one another. My fellow CC'ers believed in me before my DH did (and that took quite some time) and had it not been for all of you (most of you have been posting on this thread) I wouldn't have found my little niche, not matter how big or small I make this. Thankyou from the bottom of my heart.
And, Dawn, this is still really tugging at me. I hope you can continue to sell or at least find something closer to be able to make it all work. If not, we all go back to the idea that raising our kids is temporary and we don't let ourselves pack away the pastry bags. Bakinccc seems to be having fun with her break in order to focus on her boys, etc., and is still cookie-ing, except this time for the fun of it and there is a lot to be said for that.